To detox daily I take enzymes and vitamin B17 (amygdalin), a nurse injects the vitamin B17 twice a week for five weeks to come.
Due to the protocol I am walking, the body is producing toxic waste that can easily accumulate without being able to leave the body, which can harmful to the body. The sooner these toxic waste can leave the body, the faster the body can begin to recover and rebuild itself.
Dr. Kelley advises to use the regime for up to 25 days in a row. I noticed after 10 days some nausea and constipation and stopped the enzymes as mentioned in the protocol. What I didn’t realize is that I also had to stop the vitamin B17. So two weeks ago I’ve got a rash all over my body that I did not linked directly to the detoxification. I thought it was a bacterial infection. The nurse who injects the B17, decided to stop when seeing the rash on my body. After All this was a wise decision.
While reading a blog of a nurse whose mother (thanks to dr. Kelley diet) lived 27 years in health after being diagnosed with breast cancer stage IV, I realized that I should have stopped the vitamin B17.
The day before yesterday I felt feverish, shaky and nauseous, I spent two days in bed. And I realized that I took the enzymes/B17 a bit too long. Now I see the need to stop the enzymes/B17 when the first mild symptoms appear and that I should stop the enzymes/B17 before I get negative physical feedback from my body.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/understand/realize that the rash/itch had to do with the detoxification process that I’m taking now.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to criticize and judge myself about not realising that the skin rash//itching is related to the detoxification process I’m walking.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not realizing that the rash/itching has something to do with the detoxification process.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe that I have such little awareness for what is happening in my body, because of not finding the source of the skin rash myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not understanding how important it is to stop when the body indicates it, despite of all the hours of reading I did in the protocol. And within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be sad that I have been so careless.
And within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to keep myself locked up in self-pity and victimization, limiting myself to move forward.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I have a bacterial infection and not being able to change this opinion/idea, in which I keep myself within an illusionary way of security, that limits me to look beyond this way of security.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, despite of my nausea, to not stop with the enzymes/vitamin B17, in relation to my illusionary security, and undermine the signals of my body to keep the illusionary security in place.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, I am able to proceed, and things are not as bad as it seems, resulting in an additional burden on my body instead of an improvement.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within a pattern of not wanting to be a baby, saying things to myself like: it’s not so bad, you can still go on, doing so as I programmed myself through education and Dutch socialization to play down the negative things within my life.
I realize that I haven’t listen to my body, resulting in an additional burden on my body instead of improvement.
When and as I see myself noticing a symptom, whether it is a mild form of nausea, headache, constipation, or other discomfort, I stop the enzymes and vitamin B12 regime for five days.
When and as I see myself making a mistake within my interpretation of the protocol, I stop and breathe. I realize I do not need to blame myself, because this whole process is a learning process, I’ll gradually learn to listen to my body. And so, I commit myself to continue my way by following the diet with the vitamins and supplements, to heal my body and learn from my mistakes, which showed me that my errors are not good for my body at the moment.
When and as I see that I hold firmly to a certain certainty, because I think I know what the cause is, I stop and breathe. I realize that I have a pattern of holding on to illusory certainties that is limiting me to look further into the causes/why’s. And so, I commit to myself to investigate the securities that are outside of me and use this to build security within myself.